My Books and E-Books on Amazon and CreateSpace

I've had several people contact me about buying my books in the regular paperback form. "CreateSpace" is a branch or division of Amazon. This is where they make the paper version of books, but it is owned by Amazon. So all sales are totally secure as its their server, their bank, and all the same terms apply.



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Squirter's Paradise: Female Ejaculation! Wet musings on owning your body's sensual gushing gifts! (Regular Book)

Squirter's Paradise: Female Ejaculation! Wet musings on owning your body's sensual gushing gifts! (E-Book)



FemDom Training of Submissive Males (Regular Book)

FemDom Training of Submissive Males (E-Book)



Cuckold Letters (Regular Book)

Cuckold Letters (E-Book)

Is it in yet Cuckold? The next night.

{This will only make sense if you read the first part titled "Is it in yet Cuckold"? }

So after a normal day, right after dinner "cocky" (my submissive cuckold husband) asked me if we could talk later that evening. He seemed a bit nervous and anxious, which I enjoy within a certain "framework" but would never want him to dwell in within the more normal manner. So I told him to tell me, right then, what was bothering him.

Its odd how someone can misinterpret a situation. He thought I was actually, truly, a little upset or mad at him for his pathetic performance the night before. So I reassured him that was not at the case, I'd grown used to his being Mr. Minute-Man (if even) and it was fine. He visibly relaxed and then asked, sort of sheepishly, for a second chance tonight.

So I said yes, but I wanted the "full package", meaning a massage, foreplay, oral gratification, etc before I would allow him to insert his cock inside me. He was all giddy and happy, making promises, claiming this and that, telling me his new "Holding Off System" (leave it to a guy to give holding back premature ejaculation a "Title") and so on.

So, I took a long hot bath, had him give me a wonderful full body massage with Apricot Body Oil (my favorite) and then after making him lick my ass for a while, I rolled over on my back (no queening chair this time as I was trying to allow him to act like a "man") and had him lick my pussy until I squirted and came all over his mouth and tongue.

I should mention, or I guess explain is a better word. There are (seemingly) millions of guys that want to be cuckolded by their wife. My husband truly has issues with a good deal of it and is not one of those guys. I've often mentioned the love/hate dynamic he has with this and me. His upbringing and just how he sees the traditional male-female relationship keeps him in a constant quandary with conflicting views and emotions about it. He really thinks and hopes that one day, soon, he will be able to satisfy me fully and then he can resume the role of being the manly husband and I will cease having lovers. Little does he know. :)

So after I recovered a bit from my orgasm, I asked him if he was ready, I resumed the same position as the night before, he was erect and ready, and as he approached me from behind, I spun around and told him I had just been cock teasing him and no was was he getting the chance to fuck me again so soon, as I left the room.

I've mentioned this before, there are moments where I almost feel guilty in the way I treat him sometimes. I had a quick moment of questionable emotions and reservations as I walked down the hall to the living room, but then I quickly got over it. :)

Is it in yet Cuckold?

As I am somewhat between lovers again, (I think, not sure yet) earlier I decided to let my cuckold husband have sex with me.

As I've written about before, one of my greatest frustrations with him is that he comes within about 30 seconds of entering me. So as he, not unlike some other guys, has a harder time coming when wearing a condom, I insisted he put one on. It didn't really matter. I was bent over, legs spread, ass in the air and after he pushed his dick inside my pussy, I turned over one shoulder and said "Is it in yet cuckold?" and he came.

I was truly a bit aggravated, really. When I turned around I sort of grabbed/smacked at his cock and ended up dragging the condom off which I promptly slapped him in the face with and then threw it at him while charging out of the room. I noticed that some sperm had flung out and was on the side of his face.

Anyhow, I used my Rabbit to masturbate and am calmer now. But still, its frustrating when he does that. No control at all.

Cuckoldry is a Crime?

I just came across this. Its mind boggling how some states still have ass backwards laws on the books. So much for freedom. I hope she fights, wins, sues and this law is changed.

Reader Mail. (Reposted with Permission)

{I love getting unsolicited e-mails from people. Obviously if they are complimentary, all the better. So, that's a hint,,,, Vanessa } :)

HI Vanessa,

Just wanted to send you a quick note letting you know that I have stumbled across your blog last night and that I found it, unusual. Not in a bad way, but that it is unusual for a woman, dominant or submissive, to be designing and selling instructional material for bondage furniture. Unusual in that you seem much more legit, real down to earth know what you want Femdom/Cuckolding woman. Unusual in that your confident enough to show your face and your beautiful nude body, and then to tell the world your story, wants and desires. So I started reading your blog entries only to find out that I am more intrigued by you than the furniture.

As I read through some of the entries I began to believe that your the kind of woman that most men want in a cuckolding relationship. I think I was immediately hooked with the first entry that I read. I agree with you when it comes to despising the so called want a be dommes that prevail on the internet theses days. Pro-dommes, phone sex operators, web cam operators, and the lowest of all, "money dommes", can't even begin to understand what really makes a man desire to submit to a dominant woman in a long term Femdom/Cuckold relationship.

For me, it won't work without a certain amount of sexual involvement and teasing between me and my wife, after all that is how all of this started for us in the first place. Sexual desire drives me. I have all of those other dommes in one woman and I would suspect that your just about the same way she is. My wife is my pro-domme, she reads me like a book and can tell exactly what it is I need before I have a chance to express it. We have phone sex constantly, it is her way of teasing me with what I might get for doing something special for her. I like doing the dishes, the cooking, washing laundry, mopping the floors, all while I am nude, chastity device swinging in the breeze, with her sitting on the couch pointing out my mistakes as I make them. I do all of this just so that I get my prize when I am done, never knowing what that prize might be. She is my web cam operator as she will send me quick little videos just so she can tease me. And above all else she is my money domme as she controls all of the house hold money. I get my weekly allowance for gas, lunches, etc. But my wife has the remainder of the money do pay the bills and then spend on herself, I have to ask for and then earn the extra money for the things that I want.

I don't need any other lady doing all of that for me. But with out the sexual aspect of the relationship between the two of us, cuckolding won't work. I have my needs also and we both need to be satisfied or it has the potential to become something less for me. When that happens we have friction and that dampens everything. She is free to have sex but we draw the line there just like you sound like you are doing. Keep it at sex only, no personal relationships outside of that and it works. She gets hers, and I get mine from her.

I find you to be a very attractive woman and I can understand why your bull would want more from you. But keeping it at a sex only relationship is your best choice in my opinion. When the sex becomes some what more than that, lets say dinner occasionally or an evening out, it will start gnawing into the personal relationship and the time spent together between the wife and the cuckold. It was at this point, that I felt that she was cheating on me. NO man is beyond feelings of jealousy when this happens, especially married men. I know that I wasn't.

I also like the fact that you keep your pubic hair and that you prefer it to be trimmed. My wife prefers that she has pubic hair, which I get to trim every Saturday morning before we shower together. It keeps us connected, I love doing it and I love washing her body. She prefers me to be the shaved person in our relationship. She despises pubic hair on men, said that if hides their best feature and that they are more fun to play with that way. Besides, she loves to watch me shave mine off everyday while we are getting ready for work, sort of her power trip first thing every morning because she has me doing it for her.

Anyway, I am intrigued by you. I find you interesting but I am still learning about you. Your beautiful in or out of your clothes. So far I find you to be a cuckold's dream woman. You might just be the next biggest thing to hit the Femdom/Cuckold world!

Thank you for the lovely letter. I appreciate the compliments and your perspective. Your wife sounds like a lovely woman and I hope/assume you are aware of that and make her happy and satisfied.

D.

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D.,

Thank you for the lovely letter. I appreciate the compliments and your perspective. Your wife sounds like a lovely woman and I hope/assume you are aware of that and make her happy and satisfied. I would love to post your letter on my blog, with your permission and your identity concealed if you desire?

Vanessa

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Vanessa,

You may post my letter on your blog if you so desire. I would appreciate it if you were to leave my name off of it though.

As I said, I am intrigued by you and now your writings. I had the opportunity to read some more of your post this afternoon and I firmly believe that you are a special kind of woman. A cuckolds wife. Your husband should consider himself to be a very lucky cuckold.

I am well aware that my wife is a very special woman, that is why I am still with her. Like the old saying goes, it takes two to make a pair. It takes a special kind of woman to make a cuckoldress and an equally special kind of man to stay with her. My opinion of course. I am sure that you have your own.

D.

Realism in FemDom and Online Persona's.

I do what I do because I enjoy it. I often get requests from people where they would like me to do "X" on my website, or clips, or a book etc. I don't do that. I have never catered to other people's fantasies and don't make custom "whatever" for others fantasies.

While I do share much of my life with others online through my website/books/blogs etc, it's just what happens in my everyday real life. I'm not a webcam chick, not an online dominatrix (nor in person) and am not for hire. Of course this may be one of the reasons why I have occasionally displayed as certain amount of "hostility" towards pro-dommes, phone sex dommes, money dommes, etc.

This is an important part of my life and its hard for some people to differentiate that not every woman online who is dominant is there for the viewers pleasure or demands. In reality I have no problem with those that make a living off of pro-domination, I just wish they would stop pretending that their interest is in anything other than the financial aspect. It confused some people and blurs the lines between what is real, to me, female domination my way, and what they see online as being "real" meaning every cuckold sub wears panties, has a one inch dick, takes it up the ass with a strapon, lives in a box behind the garage etc.

So please guys, stop e-mailing me and asking me to do custom videos, or to write you stories-made-to-order, or offering me money for webcam, or to sell my "worn" panties, or to meet you for an exchange of cash for facesitting and ball punching, or anything else. It is not going to happen. :)

Free Sloppy Wet Pussy. (No takers?)

Well it looks like I may have to go off for the great "New Year Bull Hunting" excursion, again.

My current (Nick) is sort of letting me down as far as regularly providing me with cock, plus he is getting sort of too clingy and emotional.

Its bizarre to me how guys spend most of their life trying to find the somewhat elusive "No Strings Attached" piece of ass, and then when its offered up, most, for whatever reason, can't produce what they claim. Meaning, cock with no other entanglements. I mean I get that men in America have been pussy whipped/bitch slapped by Hallmark, the "dating industry", their mothers, exes and whatever else into thinking that they have to provide "romance" before/with/during/after sex. But that's not what I am looking for in a lover. I get that from my husband.

I don't want some guy showing up at midnight when I am wearing panties, heels and nothing else waiting to be bent over,,,, when he walks in to bring flowers and a box of chocolates. That's for conventional dating. A Bull should walk in with his dick swinging, do his job, fuck me, and get the hell out. Right? Right? Right,,,, I think.

I mean if you walked into a woman's house at midnight and she is wearing (see attached photos) do you want to start with the small talk and trying to woo her with sweet nothings in her ear? I'm already ready, primed, we did this before, the nature of our first meeting after he answered my ad was to fuck me, I don't need convincing there big boy, I'm already bent over with crotchless panties and my pussy is wet and leaking. I mean come on, take the hint slick and stick it in.